My 5-Year Surrender Experiment

Some days I wish I never read this damn book.

There are some things that once you see, you can't un-see.

This book f***ed me up. (in a good way!)

...it propelled me into a way of life that has been both thrilling and terrifying and has taken me through the highest highs and to the lowest lows.

If you haven't read the book, it's the extraordinary account of one man's radical "surrender experiment."

Michael Singer realized at one point that life had a lot more to offer him than he had to take for himself and decided to surrender to life.

I'm sure you've heard of spiritual "surrender", but Michael took it to the extreme...

...As an example, at one point someone started building a house on his property without his consent...

...instead of calling the cops he simply grabbed his toolset and his work apron, went over to the job site, and said "Hey, I noticed you're building a house on my land, how can I help?"

That house ended up being part of an ashram which led to many beautiful things.

Without even intending it, as he adopted this lifestyle and ended up becoming a billionaire through falling in love with life.

It's one of the greatest stories of all time.

I read this book at the tail-end of 2019... and had one giant meltdown of a realization.

That realization was: I had no clue how to really live.

With all my adventuring, wild leaps of faith, and incredible feats of entrepreneurial courage I thought I knew how to live....

...Up until then, I was telling myself stories in my head where I saw myself as someone on the cutting edge of existence.

...but after reading this story, I realized I was fooling myself.

I thought I trusted life and myself, but as I looked inside all I found was a scared little boy clutching onto the last of dollars in his bank account thinking they provided him some imaginary safety and security.

I never fully let go... not until I read that book.

I remember the very moment it happened.

I was sitting at my desk contemplating my plans as the world appeared to be burning down before me.

I looked behind me and saw all my history and every piece of identity I was clutching onto, all my successes and failures, and how they had shaped who I thought I was.

I looked ahead of me and I saw the future that my mind was weaving for me... all the things I thought I "had" to do.

I noticed how this future had a lot to do with the feeling in my belly attached to the numbers in my bank account which dictated what was possible or not possible for me.

I started to rebel against that feeling

And the funny thing was...

...For the first time, I saw that that future had everything to do with perpetuating the guy who I thought I was.

...all my future plans and ideations were just iterations on the same old things I always did... and they were getting old.

It had very little to do with discovering who I really was and what I was really capable of.

The principles I interpreted from Michael's book were simple...

1. Whatever is happening is meant to be happening, go with it.

2. SURRENDER, do what your heart tells you, even if your mind tells you you're going to die, and trust.

It was nothing new to me... but his story made it go deeper into my bones.

So in one sweeping moment, I took a deep breath, and I JUST. F***NG. LET. GO.

It was cathartic and terrifying.

I took the last of my money and started a retreat company in the middle of 2020 when every airport was closed and no one was traveling.

Insane, but my heart said it was the right move, and it worked.

(It included building a make-shift retreat center almost from scratch in Mexico on a whim.)

That path took me traveling and flying all over doing some pretty wild things in the heart of the most difficult time on the planet and showed me a side of humanity I'll never forget.

When that chapter ended, I moved back home and did the next hardest thing I ever did: nothing.

I didn't want to do anything unless it was authentic and genuine.

I meditated for 2-3 hours every day sitting at home for months.

I cried the depths of my sorrows out night after night... because that's what was happening...

With every tear that rolled down my face, space inside of me opened up for something new.

Eventually the idea for "Sail the Stars" came into my field, and I initiated the project... a sailing voyage to inspire people to move past their blockages and turn wild visions into reality.

The project took some wild successful turns, money poured out of the sky, I ended up in Spain, and met a girl.

The project then took some unsuspected bad turns, I plunged into a full-on depression and chronic fatigue the likes of which I didn't experience before.

That led me to my mentor Dr. Kim D'Eramo, who healed my chronic fatigue, and depression and gave me the skills and abilities to do the transformational magic I do with people these days. (I now assist people in moving fear and depression in moments)

I flew back to Ecuador and rebuilt my life and business based on my new experience.

The girl and I broke up.

I met an incredible business mentor who completely revolutionized how I look at life and business.

That was one challenging and amazing year that came to an end as I decided to hike a mountain in the middle of a lightning-hail storm...

...coming home soaked, nearly avoiding a landslide I jumped into a cab and instead of going home grabbed a Pizza with a friend who came across my path...

...sitting soaked, smiling ear to ear with gratitude for life, the conversation over that pizza was life-changing and led me to pick up my sailing project again with an entirely more grounded plan.

I decided to leave Ecuador the following week and would have left except life had other plans.

I somehow tripped and fell in love with someone I shouldn't have, it was complicated, and it hurt a lot, but it opened my heart up to an entirely new level of love and possibilities.

Now I'm back in Spain, I've got my daughter nearby, I'm living in a wooden yurt taking care of three cats.

My life mission and message are clearer than ever, the first boat and voyage is waiting in Greece, and in 40 days I'll be a fulltime sailboat captain for a month making inspirational videos while adventuring with awesome people as we hop from one majestic island in Greece to another to connect with deep life vision and transmute our collective blocks.

The point in sharing all this?

Five years ago I was crying alone on a mountain-top without a clue of what to do with my life.

This week I'm buying some fins and a snorkel and practicing free-diving off the coast as much as possible by the Ocean so I can do some spear-fishing.

I didn't really plan for any of this.

Yet somehow I am exactly where I always wanted to be: alive, in my best shape and health ever, pushing my boundaries, living in nature, doing my best work, and discovering what's possible.

Sure, I had visions and goals, but I found the more I clutched onto "how" I thought they would transpire the more life ripped that "how" out of my hands and sent me curveballs.

The more I went with the curve-balls, the more they took me down the path I was meant to go, which ended up the more direct and scenic route anyway to exactly where I needed to be.

What I've learned from living this way for four and a half years is exactly this....

...Life truly has more to offer you than you can take for yourself, it's full to the brim.

You just have to let go, embrace the unknown, and surrender, and the path will be revealed.

Yes, some days I wish I had never read the book...

... but those are usually the days when the guy inside me who just wants to sit on a rocking chair and grow tomatoes takes over for a little bit.

Living a life of divine surrender isn't always easy.

Sometimes it means hiking up a mountain into a hail-filled lightning storm.

Sometimes it means getting your heart broken., and then using every ounce of your courage to love again.

It takes guts, grit, devotion, and the skills to be able to navigate

your own neurology to regulate your nervous system as you make massive upgrades and shifts in your life - it's not for the faint of heart.

However, in the end, it's worth it.

Kacper

Miracle In the Goulag: read this if you're overwhelmed.

Sometimes, even if you are doing everything right in life, things will blow up on you and you will be faced with unimaginable difficulty.

Having lived through WWII as a child and the communist era in Poland as an adult, my late grandfather Stan saw a lot of things and heard a lot of stories.

One powerful story he told me has stuck with me to this day, and I lean on it when I'm faced with overwhelming situations... it always gets me back on course.

He once befriended a woman who survived the Gulag (the Gulag was Stalin's version of forced labour camps in the arctic north of the Soviet Union for political prisoners and "undesirables".)

Having been separated from her family as a political prisoner and sent to the work camps, she arrived crammed like a sardine with others in a train car to the most inhospitable conditions imaginable.

Freezing cold temperatures, hunger, illness, brutal living and working conditions, and the worst atrocities that one might imagine taking in this place.

Like everyone else, she was given a choice, to work or die.

The trouble was that many of those who chose to work died anyway due to the conditions.

She was put on a production line for assembling lumber piles onto trains bound for the capitol.

Each day her task was to collect, process, and assemble 12 massive crates of lumber.

If she finished her task, she would receive a loaf of bread.

This was an almost impossible task for healthy individuals.

Now imagine having to do it while freezing cold, starving, ill and weak.

Each day she tried, each day she failed.

Even though others around her were somehow getting the job done, to her the task seemed simply unsurmountable, she began to give up hope and decided to resign herself to her fate.

Then one day, she met a man on the line who saved her life.

During a moment of courage and compassion, when the guards weren't looking, he quickly motioned the frail woman to come over to his line.

"Not like that poor child, if you do it like that you're going to die here!", he told her.

He then brought her over to one of the completed lumber piles he had created on his line.

He lifted the top layers of lumber off this pile and had her look inside..

Inside she saw only branches and twigs.

"That's how you do it! That's how you survive!"

The man was creating what appeared like completed lumber piles, but the insides were just filler. He knew the guards weren't even inspecting the loads, they just cared that 12 of them were completed as those were the requirements from up top.

Suddenly, she had hope, and she had a plan.

Recounting the story to my grandfather, the woman said "Stan, before that day, I was resigned to die... but that day I came alive."

She started making the 12-crate payload done day by day, she started receiving bread.

With the bread she was able to get her strength back, then trade for other goods, upgrade her situation, and eventually live to return home, mother children, and live a full life.

A grim story, I know... but one with many lessons.

What this story reminds me of is the simple and powerful wisdom of "one bite at a time" and the leverage of focusing only on what is essential.

When you're overwhelmed, when the situation is dire when it feels like the world is melting down all around you...

...9 times out of 10, it's because you're putting insurmountable expectations on yourself(and others) and trying to do it ALL, all at once...

...and you're likely not even taking care of yourself in the first place.

I'm not saying don't have goals or aspirations or try to do impossible things...

...but what I'm saying is that you're likely setting the bar way higher than you need to to begin with and expecting way too much from yourself all at once.

Very often we think we have to get those twelve crates of lumber filled...

...overwhelmed, we end up doing nothing and fall into despair.

...and we forget it's just about that one loaf of bread, and that there is something simple and obvious right in front of you that will make the biggest difference in your life and others.

We forget that those arbitrary "twelve crates of lumber in freezing inhospitable conditions" are the insane demands we put on ourselves(and others), ideas completely founded in delusion imprisoning ourselves and our dreams.

For example, do you know how long I have tried to write a weekly newsletter consistently?

It's been a decade.

I have sat on this newsletter and my writing for ten years and chose not to write and publish weekly because in my mind I built "12 crates of lumber" around the whole idea.

Do you want to know what my excuse was?

• I don't have a logo for it.

• I don't have a name for it.

• I don't know what to write about.

• I don't have the perfect topics.

• I don't know which day of the week to publish.

• I would have to copy/paste the newsletter to my blog, and that's too much work.

• I have to update my blog so I can do it, I need to find time for that.

• My audience is not in touch with the topics I want to write about now, I would turn off too many people

• Nobody cares about my message anyway.

I can go on.

I was trapped in the overwhelm of all the things I wanted it all to look like when it was perfect, and I did nothing.

Do you want to know what finally got me?

"Kacper, just shut up and write the first sentence of the next newsletter."

Those are my twigs and branches.

That's my loaf of bread.

Each week I write one sentence and it turns into gold, I ship it out, and each newsletter turns into more ideas for videos and content that helps people.

I've got enough material now to fill a book and have been writing for months.

* A special thank you to all those who have written in lately with words of gratitude and support for this newsletter, thank you!)

Another example has been with my sailing project "Sail the Stars", I started with the idea to take people sailing and bring their genius out of them through adventure.

That was 4 bloody years ago!

My "twelve crates" there were insane, even though I didn't see it at the time

• I need a $1,500,000 boat to do it.

• I need to raise the money all at once.

• We can't do it in an ordinary boat, it has to be an expedition-ready arctic-ready beast.

• We have to own the boat.

Four years went by as I fumbled with a vision because I saw where it would be 10 years ahead and wanted that vision to be right here and now... instead of just starting with the small bite.

In the end, it boiled down to the simple act of...

• Rent a boat somewhere beautiful, bring people together, and just go.

The particular pattern I'm speaking to is not just the fact that we overcomplicate things.

We deny our success by making up ridiculous demands of ourselves and others for things that are more available to us than air.

It's like telling yourself you can't get up at 6 am and start your day because you don't have a Rolex to tell the time.

Because to simplify things would mean that you might actually succeed... and that's scary.

You don't need the Rolex, you don't need to write all 300 newsletters all at once, and you don't need the Arctic expedition boat...

...you just need to do the next simple thing that will enable you to feel the momentum of getting going and staying true to the vision.

And just like being taken from your home and shipped off to Siberia as a political prisoner in the middle of the night...

... Sometimes, even if you are doing everything right, life will be unfair, and you will face what seems like impossible expectations.

That's when it's always time to take things one bite at a time and focus on the loaf of bread, not the twelve crates.

Where are you imprisoning yourself in the idea that your vision, dream or situation is a twelve crate deal?

How could you lower the barrier of entry to get the line going?

What seemingly simple repetitive task could you do that would totally simplify that enormous laundry list in your head?

Thanks for reading,

If you enjoyed reading this and would love assistance to unshackle your mind, free your vision, and build an awesome life, book a call with me here.

All the best,

Kacper

How I "Accidentally" Helped Millions of People

The art of getting out of your own way is greatly understated.

And you'll be surprised with what you're capable of when you finally do it...

One day, many years ago, the leaders of an underground health movement were happening to pass through my (back then) hometown of Vilcabamba, Ecuador.

This group had isolated several protocols for reversing cancer and a host of other "incurable" diseases and was spreading this information worldwide.

I had heard a little about it beforehand, but only bits and pieces, and not enough to be convinced.

Naturally, since I loved these kinds of topics and this was up my alley, my team and I arranged to interview these men.

I got my whole team together and we spent the whole day shooting an interview that blew our minds.

We were suddenly thrust into a world I previously only knew a little about... a radical discovery that could change the world if only more people knew about it and the science was presented in an easy to understand way to the public.

"The whole world needs to know about this!" was the agreed-upon consensus amongst my team, and we joyfully went back to the editing room.

The excitement was short-lived.

The next day as we looked at the footage, our stomachs took a plunge.

Someone had forgotten to put the triple-A batteries into the Sony voice recorder attached to me, so instead of an interview we only had the broken clips of one person, "Mark", talking.

The disappointment and frustration with the lead cameraman was palpable as the room buzzed into opinions of what to do next...

I could feel everyone's frustration... a whole day wasted, our hopes and dreams up in flames, and this important topic not being shared through our channel...

Only one person in the room wasn't phased... me.

I was busy staring at the footage and playing it over and over again with a big smile on my face, I couldn't even hear the room.

Amidst the broken footage... I saw something glaring back at me like a diamond in the mud sparkling in the sun.

I could feel something big coming.

Suddenly everyone turned to look at me, and the room went quiet.

"Yeah, guys... this is a documentary!" I suddenly proclaimed with excitement.

Several people laughed thinking it was one of my "wild-Kacper" moments and I was making a joke.

But I was dead serious...

In the broken pieces of our footage, I saw a masterpiece, the whole thing came to me like a download and I just knew we were making a documentary and this was the core footage and it was perfect.

If the batteries were in that recorder... I would have never even conceived of the idea... but because of the empty space... it all came to me.

I explained to the team exactly what we were going to do, and after a brief period of disbelief, everyone got to work.

We spent the next 6 months shooting and editing that documentary, it was hard work and we loved every moment of it as we tackled enormous challenges together.

Towards the end... we ran into a problem... we had a good little film, but didn't really have a powerful introduction for it...

...the most important part of the movie was the first 60 seconds and I knew we had to make it good... I had scripted something but it just didn't "feel" right.

I remember when it happened, I was sitting in a room with two camera operators and another team member...

Suddenly, without any script, without any preparation, a voice began to come through me.

I asked the team to roll the cameras, and I just... spoke... I channeled my heart out starting with the words "When I was a little boy..."

That became the iconic opening sequence to the documentary movie "Quantum Leap," about the oxidative medicinal properties of chlorine dioxide (otherwise known as MMS) which affected millions of people worldwide.

That movie went massively viral, has been deleted, shadowbanned and re-uploaded all over the internet, and even more aggressively since 2020.

I can't begin to tell you of how many miracles I've heard of because of the making of that movie.

One recent one... I was walking through the streets of Pisac, Peru, in the sacred valley, and ran into a man who had just spent months in Uganda.

He told me how he and his friend were so moved after watching the movie that he personally flew to Uganda and set up a massive operation with "pop-up tent clinics" and saved thousands of people from dying of Malaria before the red-cross and corrupt government tried to shut them down.

Story after story like this for years.

And the whole thing was technically an "accident," the result of someone forgetting to put the AAA batteries in the damn voice recorder... how cool.

I cannot take credit for any of it, as that credit goes to my team and the wonderful people behind the movement, including Mark Grenon, his sons, the late Jim Humble, and the tens of thousands of people who have been involved since the start.

However, I'm not sharing this to talk about the movie or that movement... that's another story.

The point I'm making is...

Imagine what would have happened if I just believed we had a failed interview?

Imagine if I didn't listen to that voice that said "Just go, just speak, don't even look at the notes, let your heart tell the story."

How many times have you stopped yourself short because you believed it wasn't going according to plan?

How many times have you thought you needed to be prepared or needed to have a plan to get to your destination?

How many times have you held a broken puzzle and stopped because you didn't have all the pieces?

I learned many important lessons from that experience, critical pieces of wisdom I rely on every day to this day.

#1. When something doesn't go according to plan, it's always because there is a higher plan trying to move through you.

I find this true over and over again in life in all circumstances.

When something doesn't go according to my expectations, I let go, relax, and get curious as to what's really trying to unfold.

You have to remember you are part of a much grander divine play, and often the divine has a much better plan than you could have conceived of.

#2. Just F***ing Go and Follow Your Heart 100%

When you feel something is real, it's real, follow it, and more real will come.

Even if you're holding the seemingly broken pieces of a dream, if you're feeling a calling in your heart, it's enough.

You don't need all the puzzle pieces to make a masterpiece, you just need one, and that's your willingness and your vision.

In your willingness to take the step ahead of you, the next one will appear.

#3. It's Happening Through You, Not From You

Had I thought I was making this movie, it would have never been done.

The entire first few minutes of that movie were entirely channeled and unscripted and spoke right to the heart of every man, woman, and child who would watch it.

I couldn't have written it better.

This is how I operate my whole business and life these days.

Minimum preparedness, maximum presence.

I turn a camera on and just speak my heart out, no plans or preparations, no scripting, or bullets, it's 100% real and raw and so much more powerful, plus this saves me loads of time.

Most of the things you think you need to "get ready" are just obstructions in your way and procrastination mechanisms.

To get out of your own way is to accept that you are ready as you are.

#4. The Real Impact of Your Work Is Far Beyond Your Imagination

Just as the bumble bee flies from destination to destination, flower to flower, its real work is in pollinating thousands of adjacent flowers as it flaps its wings and sends pollen flying.

Your inspired idea or calling isn't just coming to you for your own benefit, it is coming for the benefit of countless people whose lives you will touch...

The real impact of your work will come from the 2nd 3rd and 4th degree consequences that you cannot predict or plan for...

...and that's amazing.

...and that's what is calling your heart.

...and that's what you're saying "no" to if you don't listen and take action.

Thanks for reading.

Would you like my assistance in this area of your life?

If you're feeling the calling to get out of your own way, turn a vision into reality, and express your true gift out into the world, watch this video in which I explain how I can help, and book a call with me here.

Kacper

PS. This article isn't about the movie, but undoubtedly many will probably be writing in to ask me about the link. You can watch it here.

Please know I am not involved with this movement in any way and will not answer any questions about it, everything can be found in Jim Humble's books which are available on Amazon and I suggest you go there.